That I Would Be Good.

Make A Change.

2007-09-26T14:04:00.000+08:00

After over 400 posts about my daily lifestyles
and thoughts. I have decided to switch to Live
Journal. It's a new beginning. ^^

Take care, people. Muah.

I know that..

2007-09-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

I know that he cares for me, it's just that I
expected for too much or he doesn't know
how to show that he eventually cares.
But I am pretty much sure that there are
facts that make me feel that the pieces
don't fit that well.

Is it just me ? Duh!

Heart.

2007-09-24T01:32:00.000+08:00

Be careful of my heart.

He who..

2007-09-19T02:08:00.000+08:00

He could easily put a smile on my face
and he could easily wet my eyes with tears.

He who makes me feel that.. ..

I tend..

2007-09-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

I have lotsa things to worry about.
I have things that I don't hope to happen.
But still I tend to live happily because..
I know everything is out of my control.

Perhaps everything really happens for a reason.

Who Remembers? Who forgets?

2007-09-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

And then my nose bled again for the second
time. FUCK.

Have You Ever?

2007-09-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

"Have you ever loved someone so deeply
that it made you cry?" - Brandy

Blame nobody but yourself for that!?

S'Il Suffisait D'Aimer

2007-09-17T03:44:00.000+08:00

If it's enough to love..

Only god knows.

2 weeks.

2007-09-16T02:39:00.000+08:00

I have one wish and it's..

Spend more time with you.

That's all I ask for.
2 weeks/ 14 days of knowing you.

Song That Speaks My Mind.

2007-09-14T04:56:00.000+08:00

Gimmick.

2007-09-13T02:45:00.000+08:00

When you're around, I feel that you're completely mine.

Can anyone teach me how not to be in love?

Feeling Your Soul.

2007-09-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

It was the 13th day of knowing each other;
My feelings toward you get stronger.
Thinking of you has become a daily routine;
Knowing you is like receiving gifts from a valentine.

You seem cold from time to time;
But I believe it's just the matter of time.
You bring me joy and happiness;
They could easily get me speechless.

Your existence makes me feel right;
Wish to be with you throughout the night.
Let's close our eyes and make our own paradise;
Stay together even though the sun will rise.

感觉

2007-09-06T13:13:00.000+08:00

想着你的感觉。。。

Perhaps It's Far Too Early.

2007-09-06T12:58:00.000+08:00

Perhaps it's far too early to reveal
a feeling not yet ready to be love.
The light of dawn, though hesitant, is real;
Real as well the hopes that time will prove.
I come across the meadows of my heart
carrying doubts that mingle joy and fear.
I feel that I'm half myself when we're apart;
All I want is with me when you're near.

- Gary C. Vaako

Let's fall in love; Why shouldn't we fall in love?
Let's close our eyes; Make our own paradise.

And I Say, "Love Is From Eden.."

2007-09-04T13:54:00.000+08:00

Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed;
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger an endless aching need;
I say love is a flower and you, it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance;
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken who can not seem to give;
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long;
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snow lies the seed;
That with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose.

- Gary C. Vaako

Humans are vulnerable.

2007-09-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

It's just the way you make me feel..

The feelings make me happy. Thanks.

Life is Short. Period.

2007-08-29T20:02:00.000+08:00

Life is like a journey taken on a lift
with two passengers standing side
by side.
I may be standing beside you or
elsewhere around you in the small
space never knowing you but should
fate makes me stand by your side,
let's be pleasant companions cause
IT'S SO SHORT A RIDE.

Spear and Shield.

2007-08-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

Daily decisions can be paradox;
Humans make contradictive statements.
Life is paradox and contradictive.

Winner Is Always Someone With A Mask.

2007-08-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

"The is nothing is more venomous than
a person's heart." - Banquet.

Question!

2007-07-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

Why do people say,
"He/she sleeps like a baby",
when babies wake up like
every freaking 2 hours?

Time to say goodbye.

2007-07-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

Goodbye ciggiesss..!

Painful Thought

2007-07-04T17:28:00.000+08:00

Whatever thought that are causing you
pain, they are only thoughts. You can
always change a thought.

Happiness is a daily decision.

The Existence

2007-07-04T17:09:00.000+08:00

The earth is huge and time just flies by.
We'll never know, who we'll meet in the future?
How we are going to spend our life time?
How many promises can we keep? And how
many people that will eventually forget us?
But at least, I know. I know that your existence
make me happy even though...

I Realized..

2007-07-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

The way back home is always long..

You're the one I need.

"No Answer Is An Answer Too"

2007-06-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

Can anyone teach me how not to
be in love?

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.
.
.
.
.
.
.

I feel empty..!

Ray of Light

2007-06-18T00:58:00.000+08:00

Face your past without any regret,
handle your present with confidence
and
prepare for the future without fear.

Keep the faith and drop the fear,
Don't believe your doubts
and
never doubt your beliefs.

Life is wonderful if you know how to live and cherish it.

A big boy doesn't cry.

2007-06-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

The path that I chose to walk,
I must walk alone.
I must take baby steps until I'm fully grown.
We know that fairytales don't always have
a happy ending.
And I will foresee the dark ahead if I stay.

You can hold my hand if you want to cause I want to hold yours too.

Honesty. Does it exist?

2007-06-15T03:49:00.000+08:00

If we are honest to ourselves,
we can list almost everything
that has ever happened to us
and see how we helped creating it.

How many of us are actually honest to people and let's don't
talk about themselves?

2007-06-13T03:56:00.000+08:00

Heart is not located in the chest.
It will only exist when you're thinking
of something and missing someone that
means a little more that everything to you.

Love is the master key for every room in a person's heart.

2007-06-05T15:14:00.000+08:00

Why do you fill my sorrow with
all the words that you've borrowed?

Why do you say Hallelujah if
it means nothing to you at all?

2007-06-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

He, who I have seen in person for a few times.
He, who I admire for quite some time.
He, who I would be smiling just by seeing his pictures.
He, who I would be happy to receive his text.
He, who I not dare to confess my feelings to.
He, who I...

Never seems to realize the existence of mine.

2007-06-03T15:42:00.000+08:00

A night out to a club with some friends of
mine. It was hot yet sweaty but it was lotsa
lotsa fun but I've got my freaking phone
scratched because it was in the pocket with
my car keys. *sighs*
But still it was a memorable night.

P/S: Nice meeting you Ron.

2007-06-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

Without any specific reason and without
realizing by myself, I started to like drinking
this Oolong Tea like every single day.

The bitterness that you could get from this
Oolong tea is very special. It would taste
slightly bitter and first but then you would
be able to feel the sweetness at the end of
your tongue or your throat.

2007-05-30T16:24:00.000+08:00

What do you see in this picture?

**What I am able to see in this picture are
happiness, freedom and warmth which
come from the heart.**

Life,
It could be wonderful and,
It could be a disaster.
It really depends on how the
individual handles his/her life.

P/S: Hightlight "**" to another "**" to see what I see in that picture.

2007-05-29T02:54:00.000+08:00

A Note to Myself..

I was asked to move on.
He claimt that I was a good guy
that I could easily find someone
with qualities. *Heck care about quatities*
Now that he has got me questioning
myself if I had get over him.

Life is complicated but yet wonderful
if only it's away from drama.

Question of the day :-
What if I had get over him? What if I hadn't get over him?
Will it make much differences? I will still be afraid to put
my everything onto a relationship anymore.

2007-05-29T02:43:00.000+08:00

Miss peggie and Mister Gary in Miss Read..?
Gosh. It sounds a little confusing.

From the left. Miss Peggie followed by Miss Ah Bao,
Mister Gary and Mister Rohhh-nieee in the ladies.
*Screw One Utama, the ladies is way nicer than the gents. NO FAIR*

Miss Peggie and Mister Gary posing for Miss Read.
*Cisss... Didn't get any free food from Miss Read also.*

Cam-whoring a little on the way to carpark.
*I know what you're thinking about this picture. [winks]*

2007-05-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

What's the price you have to pay for
FOOD POISON.

First of all, feel moody yet not comfortable.
Secondly, you'll either puke or have diarrhea.
Thirdly, severely stomachache that makes you
sweat and shiver.
Futhermore, with lotsa lotsa diarrhea and puking.
Lastly, feel so weak and thristy.

FUCK food poison. FUCK Little Penang, I supposed.

2007-04-25T03:55:00.000+08:00

Whole Kuala Lumpur View from Look Out Point.

A shot of myself under an extremely spot light.

Esther, I know you're going to hate me for this post.
Muahahaha. And you know I don't care.

"Something handsome will come
from this stab under broad starlight.
Will ease, will soothe and pacify
this beautifully wounded deity."

2007-04-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

I trust you is a better compliment than
I love you.

Because you may not always trust the person
you love.

But you can always love the person that
you trust.

You learn to love someon when you find out
what makes them smile.

But you can never truly love someone until you find out
what makes them cry.

2007-04-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

It's time to move on, it really is.
I have to slowly get rid of all the
memory between you and me.
Everything that has to do with you
have to be forgotten.

I'm starting to accept the fact that
being gay is hard and having a gay
relationship is even harder.
Especially, you're the one that gives
and tries your very best to work
that relationship out. At the end of
the day, the one you love the most
would be the one that hurts you the
deepest. So what of being sincere,
loyal and honest to your another
half? Out of your vision, he would
be cheating on you? So what of
having a relationship that could
last for years but both of the couple
play together. IS THAT WHAT YOU
ALL KNOWN LOVE AS?

Can time really heal everything?
I am always waiting for the answer.
I couldn't love you and I don't have
the guts to hate you for hurting me
again and again.

You said that you were hurt before,
does that mean you have to hurt
other? You have tasted the pain of
being hurt. I'm sure it didn't feel
good at all. But why would you do
this to me?

My heart beats for you.
My heart bleeds for you.
My heart dies for you.

Sleepless nights or cry to bed have
become one of my habit since then.
I wish I could stop this shits.
I'm working hard on it.
You are the reason of my misery.
And you must be forgotten.

I know I could do it.
At the end of the day,
I would be able to stand up and say,
"I have gone through the rainy day".

If I wasn't, you probably never were.

2007-04-17T03:15:00.000+08:00

If a person were to choose, would he or
she choose to be waiting in vain?

I don't want to wait in vain but I know
I am waiting waiting in vain...

2007-04-16T12:46:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so moody recently.
I don't know if it's depression or what.
I started to miss everything.
I missed Keia.
I missed my life in San Francisco.
I missed the time when I was in Singapore.
I missed Esther.
I missed all the things he said.
I missed how I used to laugh out loud.
I missed driving around alone looking for peace.
I missed the time when I was first in love.
I missed Peggie.
I missed my silliness that seems to be disappearing.
I missed being hugged by him.
I missed lying on the couch with him.
I missed listening to music with him.
I missed walking to get baby corn with him.
I missed having dinner with him.
I missed him holding my hand.
I missed him making fun of my lips.
I missed him preparing meals for me.
I missed sending him to work.
I missed looking at him once in a while.
I missed sleeping on his bed.
I missed my childhood.
I missed my family.
I missed how I used to be.
...
...

Afterall, I'm still not yet ready to make nice.

2007-04-11T02:01:00.000+08:00

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything, But I'm still waiting.
I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out, I've paid a price,
and i'll keep paying.

2007-03-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

"Love Song For A Vampire" by Annie Lennox

Come into these arms again
And lay your body down
The rhythm of this trembling heart
It's beating like a drum
It beats for you,it bleeds for you
It knows not how it sounds
For it is the drum of drums
It is the song of songs

Once I had the rarest rose
That ever deemed to bloom
Cruel winter chilled the bud
And stole my flower too soon
Oh loneliness
Oh hopelessness
To search the ends of time
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine

Love O love O love
O love O love O love
O love still full of strength
O love O love
O love O love O love
O love still full of strength
Love O love O love
O love O love O love
O love be mine forever (be mine forever)
Love O love O love
O love O love O love
O love O love O love
O love O love O love

Let me be the only one
To keep you from the cold
Now the floor of heav’n is laid
With stars of brightest gold
They shine for you
They shine for you
They burn for all to see
Come into these arms again
And set this spirit free

2007-03-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

This is the place where I cried my last farewell with you.
This is the place that I will stand up again and move on.
I used to laugh out laugh but you have taken it away
since the day you left.
You left me no choice but counting down my tears until
I get over you.

2007-03-13T13:08:00.000+08:00

You were everything that I have ever wanted,

But we both know that I wasn't even what you

needed in your life.

I love you but I know that love just ain't enough.

2007-02-21T11:08:00.000+08:00

"Ride Or Die" by Jennifer Lopez.

I don't understand why I'm crazy over
you I don't know what to do
I don't understand why I'm crazy over
you I don't know what to do

If I had to I would give up everything just to
feel and be with you
If I had to I would pawn the ring you gave to
me just to feed you
If I had to I would give my very last breath
just to help save you
If I had to I would tell a lie just because I
know you are the truth

I ride for you
'Cause you're the truth
I die for you, ooh
'Cause I'm a fool
In love with you
And I'll do anything
That pleases you

If I had to I would throw away my only wish
just to proove to you
If I had to I would die all alone livin' there
wihout you
If I had to I would go through all the pain
again just to find you
If I had to I'd surrender all my love just
because I love you

I don't understand why I'm crazy over
you I don't know what to do
I don't understand why I'm crazy over
you I don't know what to do

I wanna run to you
Breathe as one with you
Absent any time without you
Existing only for you
Every dream is of you
Only turn to you My baby, my love
Only turn to you

I would give you my everything but it wasn't enough.

2007-02-18T02:21:00.000+08:00

Soul Mountain by Gao XinJian

In the snow outside my window I see a small green frog, one eye blinking and the other wide open, unmoving, looking at me. I know this is God.

He appears just like this before me and watches to see if I will understand.

He is talking to me with his eyes by opening and closing them. When God talks to humans he doesn’t want humans to hear his voice.

And I don’t think it at all strange, it is as if it should be like this. It is as if God is in fact a frog. The intelligent round eye doesn’t so much as blink once. It is really kind that he should deign to gaze upon this wretched human being, me.

His other eyes opens and closes as it speaks a language incomprehensible to humans. Whether I understand or not is not God’s concern.

I could of course think maybe there is no meaning at all in this blinking eye, but its significance could lie precisely in its not having meaning.

There are no miracles. God is saying this, saying this to this insatiable human being, me.

Then what else is there to seek? I ask of him.

All around is silence, snow is falling soundlessly. I am surprise by this tranquility. In Heaven it is peaceful like this.

And there is no joy. Joy is related to anxiety.

Snow is falling.

I don’t know where I am this moment, I don’t know where this realm of Heaven comes from, I look all around.

I don’t know that I don’t understand anything and still think I know everything.

Things just happen behind me and there is always a mysterious eye, so it is best for me just to pretend that I understand even if I don’t.

While pretending to understand, I still don’t understand.

The fact of the matter is I comprehend nothing, I understand nothing.

This is how it is.

2007-02-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

It's very obvious that Chinese New Year
Is here again. Nothing special about this
New Year, I meant Chinese New Year
2007. I'm not in the mood of Chinese New
Year. I know it's kinda pathetic but still
I'm here to wish everybody that is
celebrating Chinese New Year a God blessed
New Year and may all your wishes come true.

P/S: I'm finally back to blog.

2006-12-25T12:09:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas time again,
Can't wait to hear all the slay bells ringing.
My parents' house is filled with cheer with
this Christmas tree.

Merry Christmas to all the people in the world.
God bless. May all your wishes come true.

2006-12-20T02:39:00.000+08:00

Born to blossom, bloom to perish.

We ride, we ride until the day we die but I remember what you used to say.

2006-12-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

She came across my mind in a sudden.
Would be be a fatal nightmare?

PS: It's what I want but not what I need.

2006-12-17T01:54:00.000+08:00

Did a little shopping all by myself today,
went to Louis Vuitton store but didn't see
any eye-catching leather good. So, turned
out to walk out the store with disappointment.
Out of boredom, I walked around the town
area for 2 hours plus. While I was passing
through a store, I saw this lovely phone
which I have wanted for few weeks.
Without wasting any minute, I went into
the shop and asked the assistant if I could
have a look at the phone. Suprisingly, she
was extremely polite and offer me a bottle
of RO water. Just right after she introduced
the phone to me in detail, I told her that I
wanted it with no doubt. I could tell that
she was pretty happy about me buying the
phone since she will get commission on
promoting that phone.
Pictures above are the opening ceremony
of Nokia 8800 Sirrocco Edition. =P

PS: Come what may, let it be!

2006-12-14T02:11:00.000+08:00

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

You may be struggling with your own indecisiveness
today as your moods fluctuate. Just as you think you
know what you want, the emotional tide shifts again
and you can quickly change your mind. Instead of
attempting to force a final decision right now, give
yourself permission to remain uncommitted. Once
the Moon leaves Libra tomorrow, you'll know what
to do.

2006-12-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

This new tote bag from Louis Vuitton
is simply to die for. Should I?
Should I not?

PS: For the god's sake, I think I'll get it.

2006-12-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

The night view.

The day view.

And the only thing that I have bought..

P/S: I see my true colors, that's why I love myself.

2006-12-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

Didn't want to call your phone. I'm scared
that I'll get used to it and will be waiting
for you everyday and night.
Not grudge to let you go but can't make you
stay as well.

It's so hard to love someone.

2006-12-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

"The moon seems to be reachable but yet so far."

When thing doesn't go the way you wanted it to,
don't give up.
When thing is going the way you wanted it to,
don't forget what you have gone through.

Life is surrounded with darkness but there is always something or someone
to lead you to brightness. ^^

2006-12-04T01:01:00.000+08:00

I love my mum so much more than anybody
who is living on this earth. Why?
Because she is the biggest bitch that I have
ever seen on this earth.

P/S: You guys can't blame me, the bitchiness from her
happens to flow in my blood as well. Hahaha.

2006-12-03T02:23:00.000+08:00

Where would you go, I miss you so.
Since like forever since you have been gone.

P/S: Es, My stomach wasn't feeling well. So, I took a nap. Sorry.

2006-12-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

Are you putting one red ribbon on?

Your life is more expensive than a pack of condoms.
Do you honestly think having sex without condoms
feels way better?

2006-12-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord, would you shower away
my pain and let it rain on me. While
I cherish the air that I breathe, I'm
an angel that can't soar, can't fly,
And I imagine that I could fly with
my broken wings.

If only I could fly, I would fly to your side..

2006-11-30T01:03:00.000+08:00

Could a heart that was once broken
be loved again? Yes or no? I don't
know! Dare to try!?

P/S: Sometimes love just ain't enough..

2006-11-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

Oh Lord! Now that I fucking realized
that there are tons of idiots, retarded
people, immature people, stupid asses,
childish freaks, nasty sluts, and for
sure MORONS are included around me.

Jesus Christ. I wish they could get burnt
in HELL!

2006-11-28T02:17:00.000+08:00

Pretending that I'm a happy dolphin and
swimming to the sea which is surround
with happiness.

... If only I could do so...

2006-11-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

I realized that I must try hard to get
over you. I'm really trying. I promise
myself that I will.

If money was everything, I would have bought it for a long time.

2006-11-25T17:34:00.000+08:00

I've got the result of my HIV test which
turns out to be negative. That means I
am still clean. LoLx.

If you want to play, play safe.

"If you're scared, don't come out and play." - Anonymous.
This is nothing but totally wrong.
You wouldn't know how suffering is to be
infected with this desease unless you have
seen it before.

No rubber, no love. Love yourself and love your partner.

2006-11-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

Flames to dust.
Lovers to friends.
Why do all good things come to an end?

2006-11-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

How deep is your love?
I really mean to learn.

Didn't you know? I've been in love with you and I always do..

2006-11-15T02:06:00.000+08:00

... And then our conversation stopped...
He left me waited for 37 minutes before
he greeted me again. Am I invisible?

He doesn't know that I actually care about that. Could I be any cheaper?

2006-11-14T02:55:00.000+08:00

"Let him go. It's time to let him go. If
he is yours, he will come back to you." - Esther.
I know that if I let him go, he'll be forever gone.
I know I have made myself cheap, from a million
to a dollar but I really feel that he's the one.

P/S: ES, you better not laughing at this post.

2006-11-12T13:21:00.000+08:00

The falling of a leave is caused by the tree
for not detaining it or the leaf was carried
away by the wind!?

2006-11-12T13:18:00.000+08:00

Who would have thought that you could hurt me?
The way you've done it, so deliberate and determined.
And since you have been gone,
I bite my nails for days and hours.
I question myself with my own question on and on.
So, tell me now why are you so far away when I'm so close?
You know even know the meaning of the word "I'm sorry".
You said you would love me until you die but as far
as I know you're still alive.
It should be illegal to deceive person's heart.

2006-11-11T03:53:00.001+08:00

"You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough" - Mae West

Today was good, today was fun, tomorrow is yet another one.

2006-11-11T03:53:00.000+08:00

I haven't reallt evr found a place that I call home,
I never stick around quite long enough to make it.
I apologize that once again I'm not in love,
but it is not as if I mind that your heart ain't eaxctly breaking.

It's just a thought, only a thought.

But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy.
Well, I deserve nothing more than I get cause
nothing I have is truly mine.

I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea,
to travel the world alone and live more simply.
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
cause there's really nothing left here to stop me.

While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down.
While I am so afraid of fail so I won't even try.
Well, how can I say I'm alive when everything I
own is for rent?

2006-11-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

Mr. K, don't you know that I have tried so hard?
I have tried so hard to forget you.
I have tried to show my interest on you.
I have made the move.
I have lied to myself that one day I could make you love me.
I have really tried.
From what you said to me, I can tell that what
I have done is a waste.
I'm sorry but I still in love with you.

I tell myself that I will get over you but
the fact is I can't. Each time I go online, you're
the 1st person that I would check if you're online.
I try not to accept the fact that you won't greet me
but it's all about lies.

SET ME FREE! I'm still not over you.

Again, you make myself feel so ugly and unwanted.

2006-11-08T15:24:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we'll really have to learn
how to let go things that we have tried
and tried and insisted to work it out.

Didn't you know that I'm so into you?

2006-11-06T03:52:00.000+08:00

Didn't you know or you were just pretending
that you didn't know that the person I was
talking about was you?

If a person wears a mask, he/she could fool the world but he/she
could not fool himself/herself cause once his/her heart reflects the
real self.

2006-11-05T03:14:00.000+08:00

Being fat doesn't mean that fat people don't
deserve to be in love or to be loved.
Stop being stereotyped. Even a pig would be
loved as well. We are living in this earth as
human beings, we can think more than the
animals do. Ask ourselves, why would we be
so super ficial?

K, you make me feel so fucking ugly and unwanted...

2006-11-04T14:30:00.000+08:00

Noticed something on my lips?
I finally have the guts to do it.
What motivated me?
.
.
.
I don't know. Perhaps, it's the pain.

Hmmm.. Next piercing is going be on tongue..

2006-11-03T01:49:00.000+08:00

Chances are meant to be taken not to be reminisced.
Memories are meant to be reminisced not to be held on.

2006-11-01T14:37:00.000+08:00

Love is a bird, it needs to fly;
Let all the hurt inside of you die.
You're frozen when your heart is not open.

Now there is no point of placing the blame;
You should that I suffer the same.
If I lose you, my heart will be broken.

... If only I could melt your heart.

2006-10-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

There is always a door that always welcomes
me and that's the door of my house.

Take me as I am.

You have never tried.......... NIGHT NIGHT!

2006-10-30T15:04:00.000+08:00

A MOTHER'S ENDLESS LOVE

She was there every time you cried, when
you are a baby. YOU started growing!

She jumped with joy, when you first stood
up on your tender feet. YOU grew confident!

She celebrated with happiness on your first
birthday. YOU ate the cake!

She gave you sweets, on your first day to
school. YOU enjoyed the whole!

She bought YOU new clothes, instead of
clothes for herself. YOU showed off to your
friends!

She took you to the doctor, when you were
sick. YOU recovered your health!

She quarreled with her friend, when you
fought with her friend’s kid to prove your
innocence & gave up her friend. YOU cared
less for her loss!

She gave you her savings, to buy your bicycle.
YOU rode with pride!

She gave you her savings, on your first day to
University. YOU celebrated with your friends,
when you got your scholarship!

She cooked your favorite breakfast, on your
first day to Office. YOU became independent!

She waited at the door on your first salary day,
only to seek God's blessings. YOU already
celebrated with your friends!

She's now old and lonely, still thinking of YOU.
Remember! All that she had, she gave to YOU.
Show your love before you feel it is too late.
THINK, for a moment! How much she sacrificed
for YOU. The agony & pain she went through
all the years. It was for YOU, only for YOU.
Give her your time, a bit of your love for that
is all she desires. Tell her that you love her
and care too. She's with YOU, no matter where
you are!

By Kelvin

2006-10-28T03:04:00.000+08:00

"I thought I wouldn't cry no more.."
Everything seems to be faked, only tears are true.

HE STILL DOESN'T KNOW THAT I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM..

P/S: To Miss Esther Phua, I was sleeping and a little
moody but I'm all fine now. =)

2006-10-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

Everytime I feel lonely, I can blame it on you and I do.
You've got me like a loaded gun, golden sun and skies so
blue. We both know that we want it but we both know
you let me no choice. Each time you go away, you just
bring me down. I pretend that all is well, so, I'm counting
my tears till I get over you.

Sometimes, I watch the world go by, I wonder what it was
like, to wake up every single day ans smile on your face
but you never tried. We both know we can't change it but
we both know we'll have to face it.

If only I could give you up, would I want to let you off my
heart? We both know that we are pretending but we both
know that we both still not over each other.

I know that I'm not over you.

P/S: I'm not going to continue composing about PART II.
Sorry about that but I have my reason.

2006-10-27T20:41:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes your view can change the view of life."
You'll be able to find more and better in the future.
Realize your present and dare to discover the future.

2006-10-24T13:52:00.000+08:00

There is only so much you can learn in one place.
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste.
I haven't got much time to waste, it's time to make my way.
I'm not afraid of what I'll face but I'm afraid to stay.
I'm going down my own road and I can make it alone.
I'll work and I'll fight until I find a place of my own.

I can't wait a moment more, tell me quando, quando, quando.
Say it's me that you adore and then darling tell me when.
Every moment a day, everyday seems a lifetime.

2006-10-23T01:29:00.000+08:00

Part I

I want to dedicate this story too all the lovers tonight
and I expect that might be the whole world because
everybody needs something or someone to love.

If you all don't mind, I would like to talk about this guy.
He started to appear in my life like less then 2 months
ago, whenever he comes online and chats with me, there
will always be lotsa smiles on my face.

This is how the story begin, a heart was sent on FRIDAE
and unexpectable, an email was sent to me. Surprisingly,
his MSN addy was contained in the email as well. Without,
considering about anything, I have decided to add him
onto my MSN list. I know you all would wonder about the
reason why? Here is the reason, HE HAS WHAT IT TAKES
TO BECOME MY BOYFRIEND or in another way, HE HAS
WHAT I ALWAYS WANT ON A BOYFRIEND OF MINE.

He didn't seem to talk much to me at first but then there was
something that gave me the courage to confess about my
feelings toward him. So, I did. From now and then, he started
to automatically greet me on MSN and he gave me the feelings
that nobody has ever given me before. I felt loved. He seemed
to be a wonderful guy to me. With good manners, good attitude,
good look, perhaps GREAT look and fresh personality.

I'm kinda tired now.. To Be Continued..

2006-10-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

It's win or lose not how you play the game.
And the road to darkness has a way of
always knowing my name but I think
nobody knows. Your secret is safe with me.
Who is gonna be there when the last angel
has flown way and I have lost my way home.

Tomorrow, I'll start over, I'll wake up and
start over again when everybody else is gone.

Nobody knows the rhytmn of my heart and the
way I do when I'm lying in the dark and the
world is asleep...

I think nobody knows but ME......

2006-10-22T05:33:00.000+08:00

Even though there is no birthday cake for
me in reality but I had a visual cake over
the internet. Thanks a lot to Esther.

You're still the sweet loving girl that I used
to know. Hehehe! Well, perhaps you have
changed in some aspects but it doesn't mean
anything bad thing.

Don't worry about me. I'm happy. I won't
keep my unhappiness on my birth date. =)

2006-10-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

I'm turning 20 very soon. Let's say.. Hmmm..
Another 27 minutes. If you think you're lonely
now, wait until tonight. I see tonight is the night
when the needs come out. When my needs come
out to breathe and I toast the stars where there
ain't no way I can sleep. I feel like I wanna testify
to you but there ain't no way I could do so.

There ain't no way that I will drop a tear when love
runs out and the pain walks in a settles for a stay
or even cause as I'm growing, I'm learning too.

Me, myself and I, that's what I've got in the end and I ain't no need to cry
because I will be my own best friend.

2006-10-21T01:35:00.000+08:00

As my birthday comes closer, I can feel the
distance between myself and people around
me. Some of them seem to be so close but yet
so far and some of them are totally out of my
sight. I stretch out my hand and feel nothing
but the cool wind flow through the gaps of my
fingers.

"Happy Birthday to Gary", I say to myself.

2006-10-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, It's really exhausting to be in love.
It makes you feel like lying there forever.

Stuck in the game of love?

2006-10-17T02:41:00.000+08:00

Love is like driving a car. If you're driving on
a fast lane with a slow speed or driving on a
slow lane with fast speed, you might want to
consider about changing the lane to avoid
some unwanted accidents.

To love or to be loved is nothing. To love and to be loved in return is everything.

2006-10-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

Love is so blind; It feels so right when it's wrong.

Love me? Love me not? Love me? Love me not? Make me yours.

2006-10-15T01:56:00.000+08:00

"And I love you baby.. If it's quite alright, I miss you baby..
A million times. I'll say it baby.. I love you forever and
ever, and ever and ever. So, we live happily everafter."

I feel contented with that. I really am but most people don't know it.

2006-10-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

"You give me "wings" that I could fly
miles to be beside you this lovely
night, across the wide and starry
night." - Henry

COULD I HAVE THIS KISS FOREVER!?

2006-10-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

I'm not half of two. I don't need a man to complete me.
All I need is a man that can make my life perfect.

For those who expect too much in a relationship, they disappointment
will be bigger than those who don't expect much.
You might think he loves you so but the truth is still unknown.

2006-10-11T16:13:00.000+08:00

"Diamonds present the meaning of eternity."

Tell me about it?
Is there anything that can last forever?

A relationship will be fading off.
A friendship will be destroyed in one's hand.
A family might be broken.
A person will be aging.
A flower will be wilted.
A pool can be dried out.
A desert can be turned into a city.
A city can be turned into a living hell.
A healthy person will eventually die.
A smooth skin will fill with wrinkles.
Nothing lasts forever.

The more you're trying to make it last forever.
the easier it will slip away from you.
Not only in love but in every other aspects.

We only able to live once in a life time. Make it to the fullest.
Do what you want to do and be proud of yourself and for those
who don't know who themselves are, eventually you'll be able to
find yourself when the time comes. In another case, for those who
are arrogant about everything, beware cause nothing lasts forever
even though you could be the best out of everything or everyone.