It has been 2 days since the rain keeps hitting on my rooftop.
Just like my feelings andmy mood. They are raining too.
I wish i could forget him as soon as possible but the fact tells
me that i won't be able to do so unless i have totally removed
him from my heart. The question is.. how can i do that when
i'm still deeply in love with him? I know i'm a piece of shit..
a piece of unwanted shit.. maybe he deserves something way
better than me. I know i should have put so much hope in this
relationship when i've been told by himself to find someone
better instaed of being with him. I thought things could be
worked out and i could be with him. Sighs. I don't really know.
I miss him.. and whenever my phone rings, he will be the 1st
person that comes to my mind but it's always a disappointment.
Fuck.. i'm sick of crying, i'm tired of trying, i may smile on the
outside but i'm dying on the inside. Loving a person really isn't
that easy.. I'm hurt so bad.. i don't feel like getting in any serious
relationship anymore.. maybe an open relationship will do but..
it's just not my cup of tea.. sighs. i really want something belongs
to me.. completely belongs to me. some random friends keep asking
me not to get bothered with this relationship anymore. FUCK IT,
they were not me.. how could they understand my fucking feelings
of losing someone. FUCK IT. I miss him.. and i somehow feel like
i won't be living long.. i just want him to be happy. My greatest
blessings will always be with him. Enough said... so i went to take
a bath... while i was soaking in the tub, i suddenly feel like shaving
my pubic hair.. so i did.. i'm so smooth now, LoL. hahaha!!
ANybody wants to feel it? hahaha!! pay-per-touch, okay? Nothing
is free in this world!!! hahahaha!! Am i really that happy? I don't
think so. sighs!!!