It's time to move on, it really is.
I have to slowly get rid of all the
memory between you and me.
Everything that has to do with you
have to be forgotten.

I'm starting to accept the fact that
being gay is hard and having a gay
relationship is even harder.
Especially, you're the one that gives
and tries your very best to work
that relationship out. At the end of
the day, the one you love the most
would be the one that hurts you the
deepest. So what of being sincere,
loyal and honest to your another
half? Out of your vision, he would
be cheating on you? So what of
having a relationship that could
last for years but both of the couple
play together. IS THAT WHAT YOU
ALL KNOWN LOVE AS?

Can time really heal everything?
I am always waiting for the answer.
I couldn't love you and I don't have
the guts to hate you for hurting me
again and again.

You said that you were hurt before,
does that mean you have to hurt
other? You have tasted the pain of
being hurt. I'm sure it didn't feel
good at all. But why would you do
this to me?

My heart beats for you.
My heart bleeds for you.
My heart dies for you.

Sleepless nights or cry to bed have
become one of my habit since then.
I wish I could stop this shits.
I'm working hard on it.
You are the reason of my misery.
And you must be forgotten.

I know I could do it.
At the end of the day,
I would be able to stand up and say,
"I have gone through the rainy day".




If I wasn't, you probably never were.