"Everything Seems to Go Wrong."

I don't really know what's wrong with me recently,

I couldn't fall sleep easily..

I don't have appetite to eat..

My head always aches..

My stomach always not feeling well..

Feel like puking for all the time..

I noticed that i'm really weak..

I don't really know how to survive in this brutal world..

Sometimes, i just need a little bit of attention from anybody who cares about me..

But it's just too hard..

My phone hasn't rang for the whole day..

Until..7.19pm..

He called me again..

I wanted to be mean to him but.. I couldn't make it..

His voice just melted everything in me..

I know I miss him a lot..

But I know I have let him go..

To find what he always wants..

Eventhough, I said that I hated you but..

Me, myself know cleary that hating a person isn't easy..

Especially someone you wanted to love but not able to love..

I forced myself not to think that much but the more i force..

The more frequent my head aches..

Could somebody please tell me what to do?

I'm living in a world that i don't belong to..

I'm lost.. and i have never been that lost.


Gary--